Ugh!!!!! *Updated*

6 min into the 13th day and ive already consumed 460 calories.

I know that i was hungry. I know that now i wont eat anything else till probably noon or so. But still.

At least i ate wheat bread.

I hate being depressed!

Update- its now almost 5 am and i ate again. Sigh.
Chips-140
Hot Dogs- 350 calories ( includes cheese sigh) and no bun ( god im a pig)

Total for this : 490

So total for today 950 calories already. I still have 19 hours left in this day and 510 calories.
So basically im about to go to sleep and sleep till at least noon. Hopefully then i can go do something for a few hours and not eat anything till i start dinner at 5 pm.

I hate hate hate getting in these moods where i just wanna eat the contents of the kitchen. Just call! Thats all i want just call!
 :/

*Update* Its now 4:30 pm. I didnt wake up till 3 pm. And i woke up to finding out that the love of my life is actually going to a party tonight ( its for his friends birthday) and ok thats great and im glad he is... but still NO CALL.Gee i can take the hint. Although Jeremy keeps telling me that there is nothing wrong he would have told me b/c he's blunt. And yes he is blunt and told me he would always talk things over with me... so why hasnt he?

I just fixed dinner. I made veggie soup with grill cheese. However i didnt use butter on my grilled cheese. I used my sandwhich maker. I also made sure to use wheat bread

Total:
Bread- 160
Cheese -240
Soup- 100 this includes all veggies and everything. I had 2 cups of soup and it had nothing but veggies, tomato paste and brother in it.
Crackers- 100

600 calories.
I have now went over by 90 calories for the day.

I still have 7 1/2 hours to go in thi sday. Tomorrow ends week 2. Im going to try to refrain from eating anything till tomorrow. Just drinking my green tea and water.

But all i wanna do is cry right at the moment. Ive seriously got to get over this and just deal with what is given to me. I sure hope that soon we can at least talk. Even if he wants us to go our seperate ways, which i hope he doesnt, i hope that he does love and miss me.