End of Diet Week 2
So today marks the end of Week number 2 of my diet.
This past week , sad to say, has not been a very good one, nor a very uplifting week. Im not exactly sure how i have made it through, well i do its called sleep away your days, but at least i made it. I cant eat much today as ive already pigged out b/c of my depression. So now its 4 am and i want to just go raid the fridge. I have nothing else to do. I cant sleep unless i go take a few nyquil. I dont want to do that b/c then ill sleep all day and wont get what i really need to get done today.
Im so sick of feeling like this! I have this urge to get in the car and drive to see him. To where he cant turn me away. Just get in the car put it in the gps and drive. Show up and go ok well im here so you can tell me in person what the hell is going on! But its a very VERY long drive. Not to mention it would cost me several hundred in gas. But im tempted. Even if i have to sleep in my car just to get some answers. Do some thinking. Of course then ill be eating fast food for days. Not a good idea.
I really wanna just put on my shoes and take a walk.
Im becomming really bitchy too. And being so mean to people. I hate this side of me. But when i get pissed and depressed and sad i take it out on everyone else.
I need a therapist myself :(
This past week , sad to say, has not been a very good one, nor a very uplifting week. Im not exactly sure how i have made it through, well i do its called sleep away your days, but at least i made it. I cant eat much today as ive already pigged out b/c of my depression. So now its 4 am and i want to just go raid the fridge. I have nothing else to do. I cant sleep unless i go take a few nyquil. I dont want to do that b/c then ill sleep all day and wont get what i really need to get done today.
Im so sick of feeling like this! I have this urge to get in the car and drive to see him. To where he cant turn me away. Just get in the car put it in the gps and drive. Show up and go ok well im here so you can tell me in person what the hell is going on! But its a very VERY long drive. Not to mention it would cost me several hundred in gas. But im tempted. Even if i have to sleep in my car just to get some answers. Do some thinking. Of course then ill be eating fast food for days. Not a good idea.
I really wanna just put on my shoes and take a walk.
Im becomming really bitchy too. And being so mean to people. I hate this side of me. But when i get pissed and depressed and sad i take it out on everyone else.
I need a therapist myself :(
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